Hope: Expensive or Nay?

Oh, imagine yourself in a building
Up in flames being told to stand still
The window's wide open
This is leap is on faith
You don't know who will catch you
Maybe somebody will
The ocean is wild and over your head
And the boat beneath you is sinking
Don't need room for your bags
Hope is all that you have .......Sara Bareilles 

I often wonder if “Hope” is as cheap as people make it seem, I mean getting dragged into almost every conversation and taking the centre stage has to make it something that is reachable or at least not so far off. And when it seems like we lack traces of it? We’re asked to find it and keep it, like it’s just there waiting for us to reach out and grasp it.

On some days, Hope is cheap; common and available for us to see and even feel. On those days it pulls us out of whatever darkness seems to be engulfing us and saves us. On the other days, hope seems expensive and tough to reach, unlike before it grows thin and becomes almost invisible to reach, nearly dissolved.

I have hoped for a number of things in my life and I certainly still hope for a lot more but the past couple of months, even though it is what we seem to have left, hope seems to be everywhere and nowhere at the same time. Today and after now, I wish that the tangible and substantial nature of hope will reach out to me and carry me as far as it can, at least until I have won this race called life.

How are you?

Ready or not?

Some minutes ago, I went through the list of things I had lined up for the first quarter this year. Honestly been trying to get a hang of a lot of things, but oh well, the universe does not really stop to see if anyone’s is ready or not. Things just move and we just have to be ready when they move towards us, or maybe not.

Ready or not

Life goes on
We grow old
The clock ticks
Decision or indecision counts
Expectations remain
Reality dawns

I imagine what it’ll feel like if we could control time and chance based on if we were ready. Lol, I guess that’ll be having too much power. I hope that when the time ever comes for me to ready; whether in making decisions or accepting results from the ones made, that I’ll be ready. Because for me, I think i’ll be rather ready than not.

Just because I had to…

It’s the last day in January and I’m here wondering what I’ll write about, perhaps because I promised myself to do so every month. Makes me wonder how many things we do for the sake of doing or because we don’t want to let down those who expect things from us. Why do you do what you do? Are you intentionally and consciously interested in what you’re doing? I personally wrote this month not because I’m feeling up to it or have something to share but because I felt like I had to. Hopefully I’m not the only one who gets like this.

Anyway let me tell you about my January.

This month has been rather long, with a good number of learning(s) and settling to do but looks like I haven’t done bad so far. I finally put down some major goals and achieved all my targets for the month. Service in a few weeks and convocation also…Yaaayyy!

One thing I’m learning to do is to be consistent, keep striving and hoping for things to turn out fantastically well. Next month, I’ll have enough gist to go round, I promise.

Keep doing you!

Enjoy Valentine *winks* Any plans?

The Planning Fever

It is that time of the year where most people are either big on planning, writing goals and new year resolutions or not. While some get to execute most of their plans, others do not get to do as much. Although it does feel like the excitement and expectations are a lot more for the new year, especially because we are going into a new decade.

For me, drawing a rough sketch of what the next ten years should look like is intriguing, honestly, I’m just here in my not so tiny world, trying to get it right, at least do a good job. I mean, we are going into the decade! the status changing decade! the one where we enter the next levels in our lives, most of the ones we once daydreamed over. If you’re in your twenties like I am then maybe you can relate.

The thought of it all is indeed overwhelming, yet even though we are not promised tomorrow we pray still for our tomorrows to be what we hope for. I think I’d rather take it a year after the other, maybe then it’d be less compound and ish. Maybe I’ll gain clarity and know exactly in what direction to go. But I definitely still have to plan anyway, so here I am getting myself pumped to do what I have to do.

I guess it’s true that the place of making plans does not take away proper planning and implementation, as in the words of Taylor Swift “Just because you make a good plan, doesn’t mean that’s what’s gonna happen.” This is however not a license for you to not do so, plans are good and can give you an advantage against the odds.

But remember, the place of actual work and implementation cannot be replaced with sheer making plans. You need to work the part just as you plan the work, I guess. I won’t even pretend, thinking and deep reflection can be draining and require a level of stamina emotionally and psychologically but I think you’ll do a great job.

One step at a time, think about it and open the windows of your soul for fresh air to come in.

Let’s begin this decade on our terms, with no excuses. I believe in all I can be in the new decade, I look forward to it, however terrifying it may seem. Allow your mind run free, what’s the best that can happen?

I do intend to write to the future me, that can have my plans in it too right? Just kidding! How’s planning going for you though?

See you in 2020!

The “Adult” Hood

Recently I completed my undergraduate studies, of course, there were a number of things I had shifted till after school, solely because I had to focus on school and stuff. Anyway, school is finally over and boom! I’m back to reality, with already a few lessons in less than two months.

My guess is, reality set in when I had to make some minor yet major decisions, I consulted a few of my friends and mentors for advice yet one thing was common in the responses I got generally. After the had expressed their thoughts, they all concluded with;

….think about it and let me know what you decide, the ball is in your court anyway. Do whatever you think is best for you.

I literally freaked out from hearing the words over and over, but it dawned on me then that I had to step up, I had to step up and take responsibility for my actions and decisions however grave their effect may turn out.

On one of the issues, I took a decision that was not exactly the popular opinion from the advice I got and I apologized to one of them for not exactly doing what he expected but then, he cut me and said ”..no Joy, why are you sorry. You know what is best for you and we can only guide you, how long do you intend to apologize to people for deciding to be yourself?

There is no better time to take charge of one’s life than now. Truth is, there are some decisions that we cannot but make ourselves anyway. In all, I’m learning to think through things and take responsibility for my actions. In the end, this phase called adulthood is a process and not an event.

Wish me well,

I wish you same too.